I never have liked Valentine's Day. When I was married, it was always a day for her to test how far I was willing to go for a present. It had to be expensive or original, she wouldn't settle for something simple, no matter how heartfelt it was. I understand how something like diamonds can make a statement, but what's wrong with just appreciating your significant other for their feelings instead of their wallets?

Perhaps this year will be better. Yukio doesn't seem the type to be concerned about how much time and effort is spent on a Valentine's gift. He'd probably be ecstatic just to get a kiss, really. But I'll get him something... maybe chocolate. Does he like chocolate? If he's a feline demon, does that mean it's toxic to him as it is to mortal cats? I wonder... maybe I should just go with flowers.

...Oh. It just occurred to me what he'll want. ...Oh my, I'd best clean up my room.

So I woke up this morning having completely forgotten what day it was. When I looked at my planner and realised it was Valentine's Day, I nearly had a heart attack, I think. I didn't make any plans or get any gifts for Jibrael... I won't be surprised if he doesn't know the holiday exists, though. So at least he won't be expecting all day. I'm putting something together now... I want to make him smile today. Seeing him happy for a little while will be worth all the trouble, I'm sure of it. The best Valentine's Day present you can ever recieve is the joy of the person you love, after all.

I'm not quite sure if I'm malfunctioning or not. I've been feeling very... emotional. I think I'm in LOVE with someone. But I don't know why I can express these emotions. I guess it was built in with all of the other strange things my creator did... ordinary androids, even in my product line, don't have this much realism of flesh or fluid release mechanisms. I guess that's why I'm the only one of my model that I know of. On the bright side, I think that means they haven't been snatching other dead souls. It's really inconvenient to know you were once human, especially since the soul's memory data is incompatible with my readers. Humans have no idea how complex their brains are...

I think I did something really stupid. I shouln't have told him those things... it's private. I was scared, and he was there for me, so I just kind of spilled everything, but I should have kept it quiet. Now that I'm awake and alright, I realize... I opened myself to him too much. He knows too much. And in my experience, it's never safe to let anyone know your secrets... they can USE them.

I'm not really all that interested in keeping a journal, but Aly insists I write about something. Nothing's really going on right now, though. Just being happy I got my second chance, and spending as much time as possible with Lance.

Why does the token angsty icon for this journal have my face on it?

^^; Hi there, anyone who's actually interested in reading this. Aly got us a journal, and while we're waiting for Kokoro to finish the custom layout she made, we're using this one. I rather like it, actually, although I don't know how much I like the name of the journal. In any case, I got to be first to post, but there will be several other peole using this journal. You'll get to know them as you read, if you don't already. I think I'll probably be a pretty common poster though. Something's always going on to write about, and my boyfriend is not the best person in the world to talk to, especially when it involves him. Speaking of Tremel, he's sick and I need to go try and get him to take some medicine, so I'm going to end this entry here.

--Darius Karanthe ♥